Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Patience...or lack of

3 weeks ago tomorrow the hubby and I dropped off our background check and fingerprints. The paper work says it will take 2 weeks when I called for more info on how we would be contacted we were told it could take 4 weeks. As most of my family and friends know I am not good with waiting, but how could anyone in this situation. So many things go through my head like will that speeding ticket 2 years ago be a factor, oops I ran a red light a few months ago. They don't tell you what they are going to look at and you have no true understanding of how they will judge your ablitity to parent a child. I have no doubt in my mind that Chris and I will pass with flying colors but it makes you sit and wonder what all they are finding out about you. Maybe they are contacting the government to get my phone records from Verizon or my search results from Google....who knows. In the mean time the pregger koolaid keeps getting spread around and while its alot easier to handle, its still sad some days. I have always said our DR's have never told us we would never have kids, just wouldn't be as easy as others.

In the mean time we are trying to pass our time by working out ALOT! I have taken up BodyPump and Piloxing (boxing, Pilates, and ballet all in one) and Chris is running alot more and going to be partaking in his first mud run this weekend. Even as we try to wait patiently its hard, Pinterest is full of so many wonderful ideas and it makes it hard not to start planning out the things you want to do with their room or what kinds of trips you would want to take them on. So many of these children have so little and have to share everything with many foster siblings, so its makes it really hard not to want to give them EVERYTHING.

Lastly in this post I want to reflect on a quote I read this morning that I feel really is important to look at. "Don't expect everyone to understand your journey especially if they've never had to walk your path"

This can be used for a variety of journeys, but I think it goes well with ours. I know that some people (luckly not many in our case) wont understand why we decided on adoption and didn't put all our money into other teatments, such as IVF (In vitro fertilization ) or IUI (intrauterine insemination) . I know many people don't understand how we could love a child who is not our blood. I know many people want take this journey to a more negative light and blame it all on my PCOS or say we are only doing this becuase we "can't have kids", which is untrue. I know many want to say well anyone could do what your doing, but I think till you take the path you wont fully understand the journey. I don't claim to know anything about being pregnant, granted I have been around MANY pregnant women lately, but I still couldn't say I know how you feel. I know that many people could adopt or foster a child and I think that would be great, but saying and doing are two different things. I would encourage anyone interested to go to a informational meeting and just learn if it sounds like something you would be interested in.

Happy Wednesday Everyone! Lots of Love C&C

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